some shit, i think.

Every time I see him. I remember all the moments when I was bitch. I blame myself every day about every thing I do. I feel like a total failure. Because I am. I think he has forgive me but I'm not. I will never forgive myself. I just can't. My friend say that i'm strong person but i'm not. I'm weak. I'm nothing. I'm just one girl who try to survive in this horrible world.

I'm a bad person. I always do something wrong. And then i bleme myself. If karma is real thing, why is she always haunting me? Am I such a bad person? Do I really deserve all this? Answer to that, is simple.. Yes. I do deserve all this cause I am bitch. I am that kind of person that hurts others when I'm feeling bad.

Always when I'm sad, angry, numb or depressed, I make everyone feel it. I say things that hurts others feelings and i don't really give a shit.

I'm a bitch and no one should be with me. Cause I don't deserve it. I don't deserve to be with someone who love me or even like me, cause I'm that kind of person that hurts. And i don't wanna hurt some one that I love or is important to me. Cause they don't deserve it. I should be alone then I wouldn't be able to hurt anyone, anymore.

I wanna disappear..

PS. Sorry for bad english. It was just 8.